Agent Procrasinator

These days, I've been the worst at getting shit done, to the max reluctant.
It's been about 5 days since I've yet to pick up my scooter from the shop, it's in repair.
The damn thing keeps fucking breaking down!!!
I've barely touched my homework, I'm behind by 2 assignments.. =.=;;
Furthermore, I'm supposed to register with KDU for January but I keep putting it off, alongside being very indecisive about it. It's a lot of my mother's money, and it'll be a waste if it's not even creditable to my University in Canada. And of course there's the issue of my residing country for the next two years, which is up in air, but leaning towards going back to Canada. I have to, but should't apparently due to my environment there.. too much of the illigit things (you know what). As the days go on, without any notice, I'm beginning to lose myself in this highway track of life as I fly by the recommended limit. Sometimes when we go too fast, we tend to forget to slow down and smell the roses, and that's whats happening. I've got to cool it, get back into my groove and think.
I'm trying to reset my body clock too, that way I wake up at 10 a.m. not 2 p.m. I'll have more time in the day to get shit done. This is hard, since the next upcoming days I know are going to be of no rest. Tommorrow I've gotta start homework, if I can wake, then help my mom pack some crap; pick up my scooter, gym it, and I want to go to Pesta. Friday it's May's birthday. Saturday.. well you know. Sunday will be the day, I'll press the restart button. =) And tonight, tonight I unleash the animal after so long. It's going to be mads niggaaaaaaa...

Siiiick

Anas being Black

Playing pool..

Disposable underwear

The Gang.

I be sick right now.. fever and some cold sweat. I'm bored currently and don't really want to do homework or anything but laze around, so I thought I'd update.
Got back from Genting not too long ago, twas fun, although, I was going through ups and downs.
And I remember being really hungry for no reason, but the redness wasn't supposed to start till next month. It was in toilet that I screamed.
Feicui: "What's wrong?"
Melissa: "My fucking code red!!! No wonder..."

Wern:"Where you guys going?"
Melissa:"Code red."
Kristi:"We're going up to the hotel room."
Wern:"Ohhhh... OH!!! Your leg hurts hoh? Ok Ok. Go rest, take care of your legs."
*There was a lot of guys around at the time, so we had to be discreet*
Way to be discreet Wernie lol.

And it was on that trip on the second day that a group of us went to Safari, a disco in the Genting hotel. Guess who I meant there? A certain really skinny girl.. QIQI! By some persuasion the bouncer let me in without an ID and allowed 9 of us in for a bottle. It was that same bouncer though who introduced the manager to me, and bought moi some drinks which had been infused with something I like to call GHB. I've tried it before, although in a different enviroment, and just for fun, but I know the feeling anywhere.. and it didn't help that I was already hammered too. Apparently I was puking out all sorts of stuff, and Kristi had hidden me in the VIP room area that's secluded. Jon had to carry me all the way back to First World Hotel. Thank you! I woke up in a daze, talking nonsense, and getting violent with Kristi.. also blew my nose in Fei Cui's blanket apparently. I went back to sleep after that, and woke up to a rush to check-out, having nausea and an upset stomach. On the bus I slept the whole way and hadn't eaten anything all day, when I tried to, which I did, buy RM15 bowl of beef noodle, I took two bites and puked it out. And effing traffic was horrible on Penang Bridge!!!

It's been a while.. a long while..

At Fame... Krispy, Angie, and I being ourselves

Forgive me, for I am horrible at keeping these sort of things.. blogs.
I'm not even sure what to write right now, I just thought I'd at least do something so it's not so dead.

Ken is snoring beside me.. I'm going to kick him.. he didn't move.. Again once more!.. and he turns his head, gave me a "look" and buried his face into the pillow. Lan ciao.

Anyhoo~ these days I've gradually adjusted to the Penang lifestyle, which scares me a bit to wonder what's going to happen when I have to leave (if I leave)? I'll have to start all over...

.... I had an orgasm last night.

Peace out.

LOVE

I am afraid of intimacy (in-to-me-I-see)because I fear failure.
Failure of the self..
The pressure to succeed devoured me entirely,
so much as that I'd throw away anything where there was any sight of failing,
or not meeting expectations.

I let others own my fate.
The expectation is nothing but my own.. and I can't be self defeating.
So first step, love myself, again.
I did once upon a time, but I betrayed myself.
And it's gotten to me, I can never trust myself again.
To love is also to trust.
I am beginning to now.

I knew, and spoke these words, but never followed:
To love, you must first love yourself.
I don't.
I know this, from how I treat my parents, how I treat myself, and how I treat the world.

I don't love myself because I've told myself, unconsiously, I am a failure.

But I'm not. I never was - never will be.

White Rock Algae

This is me.. and Kim Jong Ill.. she's an alien. Look at my stance, my body is all lopsided.


the parental and Jeff. then me. and a really big white rock.


So we went to White Rock today, with absolutely no plan. I wonder what it is people who go there plan anyway.
It's just a beach... whatever. We ate ice cream, first thing, because I was dying of heat.
Me and Kelly, the alien.. we had fun pretty much joking most of the time.
Picking rocks, and trying to gross each other out. and more joking.

Kelly:"I always wanted to be an astronaut, for four years since I came here."
Mel:"Really? Wow, that's like.. real hard"
Kelly:"I wanted to find the aliens, and protect the Earth."
Mel:"Oh you mean, you wanted to find your family..."
Kelly:"Nooooo.. my family is in Korea."
Mel:"Your an alien."

And there was this guy who was balancing these huge rocks on top of each other..
like amazingly on the tips of each other.
I wonder why they never fell down from the wind? and no, he didn't use glue,
but the crazy alien said in her very monotonous accent:
"I want to knock down those rocks. They're blocking my view."
she said with a straight face.. LOL

I climbed the white rock.. but I didn't know how to get down!!! Too scared of splinters to use the log.
So some hindu guy.. told me to hang off and jump so he'd catch me. Hells no.
Not going to like some pervert rub me the wrong way. lol so i told him to put his hands up and hold my shoes.
teeeheheheheh.
then sushi, where some LGs were being rude.. so I showed them =P
the end. grocery shopping, then here. sigh.
it's been soooo long since I've had a full day out. I feel kinda good.

I guess I'm going to start

Hopefully I actually stick with it this time eh?
I mean blogging sure helps..
uhm nothing to say now.
really blur.
that's it for now.