New things:
- Going into second semester of Inti
- Living with le bf at weld quay flat
- Driving an old Honda Accord, compliments of bfs aunt
- Did pretty well in first sem results (3.85)!
- Became open about being bi/curious
- Went to Langkawi w/ fellow friends
- Canoed to Pulau Tikus
That's all that I can recall, I guess everything else isn't important enough for my memory to retrieve. So what's happening these days? Well, nothing particular actually. I'd love to blog about my daily happenings like most people do, but I don't have the time nor interest to do such a thing, I prefer just blogging whenever I need something to release. In contradiction, I actually have nothing to release right now, but visiting Anna's blog reminded me I should at least say something on mine.
There was once a time where I was in wreckage, you could say, on the verge of death, and I had no idea what it was like to be normal. And now, it's unfathomable to me how I was in that state of mind before. Sometimes it crosses me as someone distinctively different from the person here, as if it were another dimension. At that time, what I saw in the mirror was not the person standing before it, it was actually the "me" now, trapped in there, and no wonder it felt like terror whenever I looked in the mirror - I didn't see my own reflection. Like I said: another dimension. As Carl Rogers would put it, the ideal self and the real self were not in harmony, causing anxiety and dismay. Anyhow, I just wonder sometimes how could I have been so bloody fucked up? For goodness sakes I thought bacteria was out to get me! You try to think back to that time but none of it makes sense, and it's the same when I was in that state, trying to think normally was impossible. Funny, the brain works in such mysterious ways, far beyond any ones comprehensibility.
Hah! Although I had nothing to say, there is always something I can effing conjure up; there is always something bottled up inside.
I'm currently intoxicated by Megan Fox these days... sigh...
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